It’s not that I doubt you, If I found you would I put my arms around you? Wish I could let you know how much I miss you. If I could I would kiss you, I wanna be with you.
[Considering he’s trying to get to me like crazy; Let the chase begin♥]
You know that feeling when you have something on your mind that just won’t go away and you know that it’s something important? It’s like my heart is beating like a hammer and I don’t know how to calm it. I hold my tongue and try not to say too much but what if too much is not enough? I know that there is more than I know to it and that my thoughts are just the beginning. I can’t let them wander too far or I may screw up my chance myself. As long as I stay level headed I’m sure that things will be fine and work out.
I am confident that if I keep myself calm and don’t let things that may conjure up take hold, I will be okay. Is is bad to say that I trust him? I do. I keep daydreaming and at night my thoughts race so much and images flash that I can’t collect them. I can’t sleep because there are so many thought’s and things that I want to see. Writing my thought’s is never a bad thing it’s always something that cannot be in regret. I can’t wait to hear from him but until then I’ll bury myself in the things that take me away from here.
Do you think that he would find my writing odd? I suppose that it wouldn’t matter considering that my oddities are what draw him to me. If only I could put this kind of focus into my book and get it completed and have what I’ve been dreaming of for years. Do you think that I chose right this time? Do you think that I made the right choice and that it’s going to be okay? I don’t want to keep making the same mistake that I always do.
I’m trying to move on. Entertain the pain, and let go. I’ve taken the first few steps to moving on and I think it’s good. Nothing Ever Comes of Nothing.